Wednesday Wishes

In which I discuss five things I’m wanting:

Homeostasis – I am queasy for the majority of every day. Four out of seven days of the week I also have a headache. And I am fatigued to the point of napping on at least two days. I want to feel better, but it all falls under “pain with a purpose” and is not harmful.

Information – My next clinic starts in three days and has yet to provide me with my hours, dress code, where to go or any additional information about the facility or patients. I REALLY hope this is the shortcoming of one employee and not indicative of the facilities overall operation. I would like to keep a positive outlook, and want the next 12 weeks to go by very quickly.

Let Go – I am stuck. I see negative side effects or things that have developed from not letting go of harmful events of the past. But I do not know why they are still lingering, and I do not know what needs to happen to put it to rest, reverse the side effects and carry on with a clear mind.

Oracle – I wish there was some sort of wise counsel. I could ask “What should I do?” and they would reply “You should do this….” I feel particularly weary at the moment thinking about figuring some things out on my own- especially things so delicate that one misplaced move can bring about long lasting, catastrophic chains of events.

Happiness – I mean this entirely for other people. I am content and with no desire to overflow with giggles and energetic bliss. But that is really not the kind of happiness I am implying either. I would like to see my loved ones experience a little more happiness. Not for my own purposes or ease of their presence, but because happiness itself is a world altering gift. In the presence of good or horrible conditions it can still exist and is extremely powerful. I find that people complain in excessive amounts, and despite whether it is truly warranted or not. I am beginning to think some people are not happy unless they are unhappy, because "enough is never enough" is more their motto.