It's time to move on. If this is the line it's time to move forward. If I do not, I will surely stay right here. Forever.
Today is the last day I will spend in stagnation. I will distract my mind with books, music, art projects, and the outdoors. I will have a Plan A, B, C, D, E, F and so on. I will not lay beneath the gray blanket.
Today is the last day I will not work toward improving my body and mind. I will exude discipline in my studies, and devote time to my health. I have enjoyed laziness, and given in to temptation for a long time. That promise of happiness has been a mirage, and I am ready to leave it shimmering in the distance.
Today is the last day I will not write to the ones I miss and love. My heart speaks to an empty room only because I have not opened the door.
Today is the last day for excuses, for pity tears and whiney longing; for the quiet, blank youth waiting to be born into womanly maturity without some sort of effort.
Today is the last day of wondering, regretting, worrying, and obsessing. The world is full of things I cannot control. There are countless people, and their actions, which may touch upon my life, but the effect - for harm or good - is determined only by me.
So I'll finish out today in the ways I am accustomed to. I'll savor the nothingness to the very last minute. I'm not saying any good-byes to the things of today. I'm not going to say it's been fun, and we had some good times. I'm just leaving. And I'll never look back.
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